Religion helping me through bad days

I have always had a fascination with churches. I have always admired their beauty and the feelings of serenity and clarity that you can feel when you are inside one. I don’t think you need to be religious to experience this. Religion has always fascinated me and God has always been a part of my life. Sometimes it’s nice to think that there is something else out there other than what we see in the world around us. We can endlessly debate about the existence of God but religion is a personal thing and it should always be that way. My faith in God has helped me through many tough times when I have had no one else to turn to.

But recently I have wanted to learn more about other religions and broaden my understanding of the idea of God and a spiritual being. There are two cathedrals near me. One is a catholic one and the other is a protestant one. I have visited both and when there I feel a contentment that I cannot quite describe, a feeling of inner peace. I can just sit there quietly and my mind feels clear. The simplicity and grandeur of the cathedral can be very humbling. I remember that I am one small person in this world. Sometimes I needed to be reminded of this to put my feelings into perspective.

Sometimes during the day I feel lost and have to remember to have faith, that God has a plan for me and that I will be okay. Sometimes when things aren’t going too well I have to tell myself that things will get better. God has a plan for each of us. Remembering this makes me feel less alone and it feels like a weight is lifted off my shoulder. Feeling that someone is guiding me makes me feel less like I am wondering down an aimless path with my eyes closed.

Today is a bad day and there is nothing that can make me feel better. I have tried talking to the people around me but they don’t really care. Sometimes I feel like I just want to cry. I cried a lot today and am feeling so low. I will get some sleep and hopefully things will get better.