Clubbing

It's been a while since my last post. I have been at home for a few days now. After an amazing night out on Friday for my friend's 21st birthday, the last few days have been very quiet. It's nice to spend time with my family but it's such a contrast to the crazy night I had on Friday. I am not one of those that go out several nights a week. I couldn't be more the opposite. In contrast, I go clubbing about once a month. This is quite sad, I know for a first year. I have so much fun when I do go out though.

I started uni having never been on a night out. So I was completely out of my comfort zone in Fresher's week. I felt more comfortable with the quiet girls and ended up making quite sensible friends. I had always wanted to go clubbing but was so scared to put myself out there. I felt out of my depth and uncomfortable. It was a completely new experience. Hence I held back.

It was my flatmate that got me into clubbing. I live with two other girls. One loves going out and the other is a post-grad who loves going out but has done it all already. But after going on nights out with them, I started to enjoy it and realise that I love it! It is a great way to just relax and have fun and let yourself go. I can really do that when out clubbing. But I was eased into it slowly, by my flatmates who made me feel safe and comfortable. Clubbing with a load of people I do not know would have terrified me in Fresher's. Hence why I haven't made many friends on my course because I didn't go on any of the course nights out.

My friend's birthday was amazing. We started off pre-drinking at our flat with a few of my flatmate's friends. I had never met most of them before. We played drinking games and went into town about 10ish. We were joined by a few others. We went to a couple of bars then to a club. We had a few drinks and danced till about 4 in the morning. I ended up dancing with a few of my flatmates' friends for much of the night. It's surprising how much fun you can have dirty dancing with a guy you've just met hours earlier. Later we went back to one of my flatmate's friends' flat. You may think from this that you can predict what will happen next.....but I'm sorry to disappoint. I am not that kind of girl. We just chatted and went on the roof for a bit. You can see the view of the city from there. It was beautiful to the see the buidings all lit up.The skyline was amazing.  It felt quiet and peaceful up there. A great end to what was an amazing night. We then went back to out flat and I slept for a few hours and got my pre-booked train home to spend some time with my family. This is one of the best nights I've had since I started uni.

I have always felt very insecure about myself and going clubbing makes me forget that. It makes me feel sexy and beautiful for a night. Dancing up on a guy with his hands all over me makes me feel alive. More alive than I have ever felt in my life. That may make me cheap or easy but if it makes me feel alive when I spend much of my life just existing and drifting through each day then so be it! If it gives me a bit of happiness no matter how superficial - what is wrong with that?